I go to ask him if he wants to hang. And he says he’s watching a movie, why? And I’m like well I wanted to see you tonight. But I guess not. :/
So I think I upset him by saying that. And he replied, and I felt bad… And I tried apologizing, no answer.
So I go to get him a Hallmark card and a candy to give him as an apology gift. And then things just crumble to the ground…
-jumping to conclusions. But, seriously, the information is out there. And it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure this shit out.
I’m just hoping I’m wrong.
Well, about one part. I mean it could have many meanings… I’m thinking either it’s bad, and I’m going to be upset/disappointed. OR it’s going to be good, I’m going to feel just overwhelmed with ecstasy, and I’m going to be like “Wtf was I thinking, it wasn’t bad at all.”
Well, not bad in one sense, but bad in another…
I think people fail to understand how my mind works, and why I am the way I am.
Has it just been as simple as a choice? The toss of a coin?
Maybe I have been naïve. Maybe I have been fooled.
But who’s to say? I guess only time will tell.
Hope I get to see him tomorrow night. :]
Gonna take him out to ramen in Rowland Heights, yaya! :D
Aaaaand then a nice night out to look at the sky, and lay in Bertha’s bed to snuggle under blankies. :3
Hope it works out.
I have this really weird, ircking feeling in the pit of my stomach. I dunno what it is.
I’m starting to think maybe it’s from sleep deprivation?
I dunno, but I feel really lonely right now. I wish I had someone to talk to right about now. Just to be with and talk to.
Buuut I’m just pretty excited with how last night went :]
What if all my friends read this blog I keep?
Honestly. Huh. I don’t think I’d care.
Judge me all you want, think I’m obsessive and weird.
These are my thoughts put into words.
I can’t help ideas that run through my mind so often during the day.
I can’t help that I’m happy. :]
And, so, I keep writing.
<3
3 different people told me I’m hot in the passed couple of days.
I’M NOT HOT?! I SWEAR. I don’t see what they see!
And it just makes me freeze up, and I don’t even know what to say…
And the first one was him, of course. On my status the other day. I was just like ?! 0.0
Yeah, I wonder if he really meant it. I’m afraid to ask :x
Of course, it’s making its way back to me. Freakin’ paranoia. I’m paranoid that when I talked to him tomorrow, and ask him certain questions, that I’m not gonna end up liking the responses. Then again, there is the possibility that I will like them. I wanna ask him where he sees this going between us. Where does he see us in one month, in two months, in half a year. What does he see thing progressing to, if he even sees progress for it in the future? I guess I’ll find out tomorrow, hopefully.
I asked him out to dinner on Saturday, and he said “Yeah! For sure for sure!”
I was just so giddy :>
And I know exactly where I’m going to take him! :D
I’m gonna give him another gift, with another lovely note :]
I’m thinking a panda plushie will be part of this gift. Or my Domo plushie that I have just lying around… I think the gift will be better if it’s something that I have with sentimental value, no?
I’m having this awful feeling inside of me. I know I get paranoid for no reason. A lot. As I’m sure others do. But I think I bugged him by asking him so many times to hang out last night. I really wanna make it up to him, because I don’t like it when I annoy/bug people that I like/are dear to me… :/
Sure, I could be just jumping to the conclusion that I bugged him, which is a huge possibility. But, as they say, the possibilities are endless…
Nonetheless, I think this will be a nice thing to do for him regardless of the reasoning behind the gift. Because the last gift I got him he just adored.
So, I think I’m set. Domo plushie, along with the keychain mini Domo plushie I have, and a note from yours truly.
Next; set the plan into motion…
P.S. I would love feedback. I feel kinda dumb for talking to cyberspace, but it’s nice to get my thoughts out there, even if others aren’t reading them. And I like how this is basically an online journal for me :D
